It has been a long time since my last post—in fact, nearly two months! But a "time out" in part necessitated by dual eye surgeries—left eye first, followed by the right two weeks later.
The four-week pre-surgery regime rendered me unable to read comfortably, watch a moment of TV, or even walk around outdoors without endangering myself. I'd pre-written all my upcoming columns. So I spent the time listening to music and audio books, resisting the urge to snack the hours away, while trying to not burn myself as I fed chunks of split ash to the woodstove.
Mostly, though, I simply sat around and thought.
Then came the surgeries, doctor visits, and crazily complicated post-surgical routines of six different drops which had to be inserted 2X, 3X, or 4X each day, changed from one week to the next, and of course were on different timeframes for each eye. Frankly, my ability to comply would likely have proven woefully beyond my schedule-management capabilities without the help of the Alarmed app on my handy dandy iPhone.
I'm now finished with the drops in my left eye, and have about another week to go for the right, which is down to two different medications, 2X and 3X daily. But the truly great news is my vision—a bit better than 20/20 in both eyes, no astigmatism, vibrant accurate colors.
A way better outcome than I expected—more amazing and marvelous and flat wonderful than I ever dared to imagine!
Already, my "new" eyes have proven to be a gift and blessing which has fundamentally changed my life. Partly because of the incredible surgeries and skill of the surgeon and team who performed them…but also because of that unavoidable "time out," before and after, which obliged me to spend day after day inside my own head—thinking, dreaming, contemplating, evaluating, planning, accepting, prioritizing, discarding, organizing—deciding.
From a medical perspective, I could have begun composing posts a couple of weeks ago. I started to do so several times…but, well, just wasn't ready. And I'm not even completely sure what held me back. Maybe I simply needed a bit more time to understand my inner change.
Vision is technical. But seeing is holistic, sight interconnected to who you are—personal fears, joys, beliefs. Seeing comprehends, interprets, reveals. It's a two-way street. Active rather than passive. Vision plugged into the heart and soul.
During these weeks away, I've made several decisions. Ones important to me, to the work I do, to my life ahead. Ultimately, some of those decisions will make their way onto the pages of this blog. I want Riverdaze to always be an honest reflection of who I am.
I value this blog. Riverdaze is important to me…YOU are important to me. I so appreciate that you take the time to read my drivel and glance at the photos. I'm sure I get than I give. And I haven't neglected things out of laziness or irresponsibility.
So I hope you'll understand—and forgive—my lengthy absence.